Jeannie,

Don't worry about letting off steam…if you didn't you would burst!  And your husband needs you.  I know this is nothing like what you are going through, but I have a hubby story; this past year, my husband had his first surgery!  At the age of thirty two, he underwent knee surgery.  Well I was a mess, I walked the halls, looked at the clock that stood still, watched the operating room door, until finally a nurse suggested I visit the giftshop.  That was a great idea….a gift!  Well, I went down the elevator and boy they had some nice gifts, with nice prices!  So, I chose a ten dollar flower, it was a simple yellow rose with a beautiful balloon (small).  It thrilled me to buy it!  After what seemed like ages, the doctor made an appearance and told me to go ahead and meet him in my husband's room….he had gone through surgery wonderfully and he was able to correct the problem!  I was so elated, I hobbled (I can't run because of my leg) with the lonely flower back to his room to wait.  When he saw me, he had this look on his face I am not familiar with….it was a scowl.  The nurse whispered to me, "It's the anesthetia, it makes patients angry".  Well, I give him the flower and he says, "I bet that cost a lot!"….and I felt horrible!

My point here is, and I have one, I built my heart up thinking all that time that the little flower would cheer him up and show him that I cared; but by me just being there, I was showing him how much I loved him.  You are a strong lady and your husband is probably scared…even though men never admit those things.  You are a blessing to him.

Constant thoughts and prayers are going your way from me–as well as so many others. Never be afraid to ask for them. We all  "get by with a little help from our friends"  as the Beatles wrote so long ago. Take care.Rain