Jersey Lady said:

Oh,Flatlander…my heart breaks for you too. You know I know exactly how you feel. DH had to go to town and get milk replacer which I am sure does not taste like the good milk the calves are used to. The barn cats are wondering why their milk pan is empty. I washed our milk pitchers and put them away for now. We had just started improvements in our little milk parlor. That is on hold now. We are not sure what we are going to do. How are things going at your place?

Thanks to all the kind words and thoughts from our CITR friends :)

I'm very down and sad of course…right now I don't want another cow, simply I can't replace her.

On the other hand, we were already looking for a friend for her, one cow is so lonely and looked at a very cute(bred) Dexter.

Of course I canceled the whole deal Monday, but the lady replied back that she is keeping the Dexter over winter and will get back to me in spring..if by then I changed my mind, I can still buy her (and price would remain the same) and her calf..if not that is fine too.

For now I think I stick with the goats….but I might think different come spring..time will tell.