Along with so many comments, I’ve received many emails from women who have been in my shoes. Anyone who has been there understands the shame you feel about something that isn’t your fault. It was very difficult for me to break past that and write about it, and I appreciate all of your comments and emails. The past two years, in particular, had been increasingly difficult at Stringtown Rising, on a couple of different levels. If you look back at the Landing on My Feet post and read the part about how this farm, Sassafras Farm (such a beautiful farm!), had been on the market for two years without a buyer, you can understand more fully how I felt as if this farm had waited for me with a purpose. I never could have imagined it, but it was here all along.
I looked back at this post recently–Moving Day. It was one of the most stressful days of my life and you can see in the video in that post how I just barely escaped Stringtown Rising before a flood. At the time, it was just an exhausting, stressful day–but when I look back at that post now, it makes me cry with happiness that I am here.
Those are both posts from the past where I left out parts of the story to protect other people, protect myself, hide the truth, keep up appearances, etc. In the present, sometimes I find myself wishing I could more honestly express why I’M SO HAPPY TO BE HERE.
It’s very freeing to feel as if I can now, and that makes me even happier. I feel at peace where I am, despite the various plumbing and other troubles–and there will always be troubles of some kind as that is part of life. It’s almost spring, and I’m so excited. Construction starts in the studio next week and I’ll be able to start contacting the studio project backers to get your info for the rewards. Expect to hear from me soon on that.
It’s a relief to be able to be honest about some of the emotions behind my happiness at this farm, but at the same time, I promise to not constantly dwell on the past. After all, today is the most important day–every day. And there’s so much fun stuff coming up! I cannot WAIT to get into the studio with Dave and Matt and do some demolition!!!!!
And then there’s this guy:
Crossing fingers he comes to live with us soon!