I’ll never write this post so that it is good enough for her, so I won’t even try–because right now, I just can’t. I just need to write it and get past it because I am so heartbroken.

This afternoon, I was in the barnyard painting the wagon, had been for some time, and everything and everyone was normal. Then I heard a strange sound. I looked over to see Clover suddenly on her side on the ground, having spasms. I ran to her, saw that something was terribly wrong, and ran for the goat carrier. Heather, who is here visiting ahead of the retreat and helping me get ready, ran for my Explorer and drove it into the field to meet me with the carrier. We loaded her in the back of my Explorer and I raced to the vet’s office. She was gone by the time I got there. I could not have gotten her there any faster. I had to know why. I asked them to necropsy her immediately.

She died of a heart attack. The vet told me if he had been standing there with me in the barnyard when it happened, he couldn’t have saved her. Even if anyone had known beforehand, nothing could have saved her. She had a congenital heart defect–a very, very abnormally small heart, and to top it off, she was operating on one lung. The vet said her other lung was pretty much destroyed and flattened from some kind of very old damage, possibly pneumonia. Clover has never had pneumonia while I had her and the vet said she probably had it when she was a kid. She’s lived her whole life with one lung and an abnormal heart. He was amazed that she had lived as long as she had and had given birth three times. I told him that she was always very energetic! He told me that all her other organs looked perfect and she was sleek and in good weight. In fact, SHE WAS NOT PREGNANT. I thought she was. She was just fat.

When it was all over, he asked me if I wanted to see her again. I said no, not wanting to see her after they’d done all that. He left and came back, saying he’d covered her up but for her head, did I want to go see her. I think he could tell I was devastated. I went back there and cried all over her like a baby.

I came home and could not believe she was not in the barnyard.

They were really nice at the vet’s office. I rushed in there without having taken a second to make a phone call, would have pushed a thousand people out of my way if I’d had to, and they took care of Clover right away. When I was crying all over her at the end, I said, “She was a really special goat. Thousands of people are going to be upset.” I don’t think they really understood, but I know you do.

I took this photo of her last night. She’d somehow shoved her way in through the chicken house door.

She was some goat. I loved her like crazy.


  1. VikingMiss says:

    I am so sorry, Suzanne. I know it’s a part of life, but it doesn’t make losing our special animals any easier. I will miss not hearing/seeing Clover updates. Many hugs to you.

  2. CATRAY44 says:

    Suzanne, I am so very sorry. What a wonderful life she had and what a funny little blessing she was.

  3. Kathy in FL says:

    Oh, Suzanne! I am so sorry for your loss! RIP, Clover.

  4. jamitysmom says:

    I’m so sorry too, Suzanne. It’s going to be sad not to meet her on Thursday. She was a very special goat. I’m sitting here crying and even my husband understands how devastated you must be. Hoping the distraction of the Retreat will help in the healing for you.


  5. brookdale says:

    Oh Suzanne, I am so very, very sorry! Clover was a very special goat and we loved all the stories you wrote about her. I especially loved the pictures of her in the costumes.
    Do you still have any of her kids?
    Again, so sorry to hear this. Hugs…

  6. Luann says:

    So Sorry Suzanne! (all I can say thru my tears for Clover) πŸ˜₯

  7. kbryan says:

    I am so sorry that Clover is gone. Your posts about her were wonderful to read, and I know you will miss her very very much. She brought smiles to many faces, and I am glad that we got to know her. I know that your heart is aching, but I am glad that you have many wonderful memories of her. Hang in there. . .

  8. denisestone says:

    OMG! OMG! OMG! NO!

    My heart breaks for you Suzanne! This is absolutely devastating news. I am so absolutely sorry for you. I wish I could give you a great big hug! I am so bummed that I never got to meet this special girl.



  9. BuckeyeGirl says:

    Oh my goodness, I’m bawling like a baby. I’m so sorry Suzanne! I don’t think I can say more than that right now, and I don’t think you need to hear it. ((hugs))

  10. lynwilson says:

    I am so sorry about Clover. I know how special that she was to you.

  11. merng says:

    My heart just sank when I read the title of the post. I read most of it through tears. I am so sorry, I know she was your special girl.

  12. lifecoachcarolann says:

    Oh, honey, I am so very, very sorry. I know how much you love your fur family. I enjoyed reading about and seeing Clover for years now and she will be missed.

  13. yvonnem says:

    Oh my…I’m so sorry. So sad for you. πŸ˜₯

  14. Sue, a Florida Farm Girl says:

    Oh, I’m so sorry to hear this!!! Clover was one of your babies and I know it is devastating to you to lose her. Hugs to you, and to all the other kids on the farm tonight.

  15. Diane says:

    Good Bye Clover. I’m crying reading this. I so enjoyed hearing all your stories about her. She was a very special goat and lived a good life with you. HUGS. More HUGS and tears and More HUGS.

  16. wvhomecanner says:

    πŸ˜₯ πŸ˜₯ πŸ˜₯


  17. PaulaClark says:

    Oh my. I am so sorry. We lost our sweet dog, Maggie, just 10 days ago and I understand fully what you are feeling. We will be heartbroken for a long time as you will be.

  18. leeway_93 says:

    Oh Suzanne! I am so, so sorry! Even though I don’t know you personally, I love(d) Clover! I loved reading about her, all of your animals. My heart breaks for you.

  19. MaryZ says:

    I am so devastated.

  20. Karo says:

    I’m so sorry. I so hoped to meet her one day. She was my favorite of your animals.

  21. Stephanie in Seattle says:

    I am so sorry about Clover passing away. I think she knew she was your favorite and that you really loved her. She had a good cookie-filled life with you. Sending hugs your way.

  22. gingergoat says:

    So so sorry for your loss. Clover will be missed by all of us out here. πŸ˜₯

  23. amyg says:

    Oh Suzanne
    My heart is just breaking for you. I know what she meant to you. She was a funny little girl and we will all miss her along with you. Please know that you are in my thoughts.
    Amy :no: :heart:

  24. Auntie Linda says:

    So SO sorry to read this. I “met” Clover when I first discovered CITR and fell in love right away. I feel for you. So very sorry……

  25. Landodixy says:

    Tears are just rolling down my face. I am so sorry for your loss!

  26. tinamanley says:

    I am so sorry. I loved Clover like my own animals. We will all miss her so much. I’m sitting here in front of the computer crying like an idiot. Lots of love and hugs to you and all of Clover’s friends.


  27. jeannieq says:

    I am so very sorry about Clover. There are just certain animals God has given us to love. It is comforting to know that she lived the last years of her life in your care and that her end was swift and merciful and not riddled with pain and disease.

  28. bonita says:

    Clover stood by you through Stringtown Rising and she watched you get established at Sassafras Farm. Her true heart was not defective, it was a good as good could be. Surely she’ll keep watching over you, even if from over the Rainbow Bridge.

  29. lady under the oaks says:

    special little personalities…loved your Clover…so glad she
    had a place in your heart and you shared her with me!

  30. Goodnewsfarm says:

    This is the part I hate when you lose a “beloved friend” a part of the animal family. You have all these lovely memories of her and cookies! You gave her a wonderful life. She would have told you if she could have you were the best “Mom” any goat could have. Sharing tears!


  31. STH says:

    Oh, I’m so sorry, Suzanne. We just had to put down our old cat this weekend, so I’m feeling pretty broken-hearted, too. Take care of yourself, and always remember that she had the best life she could have possibly had living with you. She was so loved and I’m sure she knew that.

    Big hugs to you. Hang in there; it will get better.

  32. LadyMau says:

    I am heartbroken for you. Clover was so very special and I know her loss is felt by so many tonight. πŸ˜₯

    the hardest part of keeping animals so close to your heart is the pain in losing them for any reason. I believe it hurts so much because they take a part of you with them.

    Know that Clover is across Rainbow Bridge waiting for your time to show up……Woman, where are the cookies?

  33. mommy6_1 says:

    So very sorry for your loss. Just heartbreaking news.

  34. catslady says:

    Suzanne, I am soooo sorry and in tears. She was very special for all of us. Our animal friends can cause such horrible heartache but they also bring us such wonderful joy. I wish it was easier πŸ˜₯

  35. Andrea.tat says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve only known a few goats in person, and otherwise, but I think she was the best goat. I’ve looked at her Christmas photo-ops lots of times and they always brighten my day. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  36. wanda1950 says:

    Oh, Suzanne, I can’t say how sorry I am to hear this awful news. I have loved her along with you & so many others. She had a wonderful life with much love & many cookies. Saying a prayer for you.

  37. DancesInGarden says:

    Rest in peace, Clover. I never met you, but you are the reason I daydream about pumpkin coloured goats with dangles, and long to have my own goat baby just like you. We will honour your memory by feeding extra cookies to the other goats during the retreat. And we will take care of “Woman” for you. :hug:

  38. cabynfevr says:

    Oh Suzanne, I am so sorry. She was an all time favorite. What a lucky girl she was to have found such a special goat momma in you. πŸ˜₯ RIP sweet girl…

  39. oneoldgoat says:

    Those goats just capture our hearts – please know that I am thinking of you and pray that you can someday soon take comfort in the many memories of that cookie-loving goat!


  40. wanda1950 says:

    I am so sorry to hear this terrible news. She was so special–loved to hear about her. We will all miss her so much. Know that you gave her a good life & she loved you very much, too.

    I’m having trouble submitting comment–hope it works this time.

  41. NancyL says:

    You were right; thousands of us are going to miss Clover. I’m dripping tears on the keyboard – I’ll miss her antics and caustic comments. I know you wrote them, but I believe she was thinking them.

    I am so very sorry, especially just before your event.

  42. FrannyP says:

    I am heartbroken! Please know that Clover has brought joy to so many since you first brought her home. I will miss reading of her antics and seeing her adorable photos. My condolences, Suzanne. I know death is a part of farm life, but this one has to be different for you. I know Clover is waring a crown in heaven now and munching on some really tasty cookies. St. Francis of Assisi always carries extra!

  43. Rys says:

    I am so very sorry for your loss !

  44. cacieleanne says:

    You were right when you said thousands of people will miss her. I’m so very sorry for your loss. I loved stories about Clover! She was very special and brought alot of laughter to alot of people. :sheepjump:

  45. Heidi533 says:

    Oh Suzanne! I am so sorry. I’m sitting here crying right now. Your farm will never be the same without her, I’m sure. She really IS a very special goat and she will live on forever in the pages of this blog. (((((hugs)))))

  46. LisaAJB says:

    Oh Suzanne! She was a wonderful goat, and you’re right about us being upset. We’re mourning with you. Clover was very special and I will miss her presence here immensely. Hugs. :hug:

  47. Cbfisher says:

    Oh Suzanne, I know I’m speaking for my daughter (who’s in college and follows your blog as well) as well as myself in saying we are both so very sorry. We had to bury a most beloved dog this summer and are all too aware of the heartbreak of losing these special family members. We’ll say extra prayers for God’s comfort, and be thinking of you, as you’ll be down a good one at the farm without your sweet Clover.

  48. liz2 says:

    Suzanne, I’m so sorry. She was dearly loved by so many of us.

  49. Miz Carmen says:

    So very sorry to hear about Clover. There are going to be some very lost animals (and people) looking around for her and missing her at your farm for a long time.

    Hugs from the Evergreen State…

  50. irishhillstrish says:

    Such a sudden loss….. and yet, Suzanne ,in time you will think of all the smiles she brought to your face ( and ours ). Those warm and funny memories are something you will always have. Thank you for sharing her ( and YOU ), with us.

  51. judydee says:

    My heart sank when I read the title of this post–somehow I just knew. Her “true heart” as bonita said has to be abnormally large, because of all the love that it has shared. Right now my heart is breaking with all the thousands of others. I am so glad that I got to know her through you.

  52. Jersey Lady says:

    Dear Suzanne and All:
    All of us here at Golden Bucket Farm send our sympathy on Clover’s passing. We are so sorry, but are thankful she was happy to the end. Hugs to everybody there at Sassafras Farm

  53. GA_in_GA says:

    Oh, Suzanne! I am so sorry.

  54. alba says:

    Susanne I am so sorry for your loss, She will always be in my heart.
    God bless. <3

  55. CD says:

    I’m so sorry! I’m glad I was able to get to know her through you. I know your heart is broken…I wish I had the words to help heal it. It’s always hard when we lose a member of our family. Hugs to you.

  56. SusieD says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. She was a very special goat. I will miss her and feel your pain.

  57. farmkat says:

    I am so, so sorry Suzanne.
    Know that your grief is shared by all of us. I will miss hearing about Clover, her cookies and her backtalk to the Woman.

  58. Patty says:

    Oh Suzanne I am so sorry. I am in tears missing her and feeling your loss, and I’ve never met you or clover. She had such a wonderful life with you on both farms. She had a great family. *hugs*

  59. BrownsFan says:

    Oh Suzanne, I’m so sorry. Clover WAS a really special goat and I join everyone else in thanking you for letting us know her. Typing this thru tears…

  60. quietstorm says:

    No possible words….just sitting here shaking my head in disbelief, and my heart in the pit of my stomach……(((((huggs)))))

  61. Dumbcatluvr says:

    πŸ˜₯ no words. :no:

  62. mschrief says:

    One thing that is hard when you follow this sort of blog…I never touched, petted or knew Clover, but I feel like I did. She was mine,too!

    Loving always leads to loss, that is our test, how we deal with it. I’ve lost my mom, dad, aunt, uncles, my best friend, my pets. It never gets easier.

  63. RosieJo says:

    I’m certain you already know that you are not the only one in shock and in tears tonight. So sorry for your loss. It’s our loss, too.

  64. Leah Beth says:

    So sorry to hear about Clover…it’s really hard when it happens without warning to a pet that is part of the family. She was very lucky to live on your farm and blessed with such a loving home. Find comfort in knowing that you were the best thing in her life and took such good care of her that she showed no symptoms of her illness. You gave her a rewarding life as a pet and as a mother of three babies…she lived a wonderful life!

  65. 4jsMOM says:

    With a sad heart, Suzanne, I’m sending you a big hug. Thank goodness you have lots of wonderful memories. But right now, I know you must be so sad.

  66. Launi says:

    Oh, Suzanne–I’m soo sorry about Clover. She must have stayed well and happy with you so long because she loved you so, so much. I’m so sorry. You’ll be in our prayers for the loss of your sweet friend.

  67. justdeborah2002 says:

    I am so sorry for your loss.
    I saw the beginning of the post on Facebook and started crying before I could even start reading here on your page.
    I, like so many others, sit crying for the passing of a goat we never met. Love is a strange and wonderful things.

  68. oct4luv says:

    This is so sad. We all loved Clover. May she rest in peace.

  69. outbackfarm says:

    Suzanne, I am so sad for you. I know she will be terribly missed by so many. I so enjoyed that sweet little goat and all her stories and the pictures. I loved her dress up pictures. She is a special goat for sure. Wow. And an amazing goat to have lived so long like that. It must have been those yummy cookies that kept her going for so long. Sending hugs and good thoughts your way tonight.

  70. zshawn says:

    adding my condolonces for Clover. Sometimes we are blessed with special animals in our lives, you certainly had a special one with her. She had a great life and may your wonderful memories help you through this loss.
    Hugs for you!

  71. Rose H says:

    I’m so sorry Suzanne. I know that dear Clover was a very special goat who has a part of each or our hearts. She was a lucky soul to have lived with and loved by you and your dear family. I can imagine how heartbroken you all are.
    The last photo you took of her is so dear.
    I cannot find other words at the moment….
    Sending a huge :hug:
    Rose H

  72. kellyb says:

    Suzanne, there are no words. I’m so sorry for your loss.

  73. doubletroublegen says:

    Some goat indeed! Deepest heartfelt sympathy to all at Sassafras Farm, I just cannot imagine life there without the queen of the barnyard. I am thankful Heather was there with you, she is truly one amazing person who jumps in and does what needs to be done without a second thought!!! Two years in a ROW!!
    Clover will never be forgotten, RIP dear Clover. :heart:

  74. TwistedStitcher says:

    Suzanne, I am so terribly sorry. I have read so much about Clover I feel like I knew her personally. I am so going to miss her, as will so many others here. She really was a special goat.

  75. Curbstone Valley Farm says:

    I am so so very sorry. I know I would be shocked, and devastated too. That Clover managed to do so well, for so long, is a great testament to your love and care for her, and of her love for you. She looks beautiful and very contented in the coop in your last photograph. What a tremendous loss. Sending hugs to you. :hug: ~ Clare

  76. doubletroublegen says:

    Just wondering who was your vet? For those of us who live near we may want to use the same dr who was so kind and compassionate.

  77. Canner Joann says:

    C is for the Cuteness of her precious face;
    L is for the Laughter that she brought;
    O is because she was Over-the-Top;
    V is because she Vamped for the camera;
    E is because she was Extraordinary;
    R is because she will REALLY, REALLY be missed.

    I’m so sorry, Suzanne.


  78. auntbear says:

    Yes mam,we will all miss Clover.

  79. ladycregga says:

    As I sit here in tears reading this I just want to so I am so deeply sorry for you loss. All of us who have followed you and your adventures with Clover and the rest of the critters all know how much she meant to you. She was truly a special girl.

  80. laurie hamar says:

    So hard to lose a pet that you love. We’ve all been there and grieve with you. Sending hugs your way. You gave Clover lots of love and she knew how much you loved her. We all loved her.

  81. Karen H says:

    I am crying also. I never met Clover but I feel like I knew her from all your wonderful pictures and stories about her. Bless your heart. Losing a loved pet is so very difficult.

  82. Teri says:

    So sorry for your loss. Clover was Some goat!

  83. mrsdmahogany says:

    Oh Suzanne, I am so very sorry to read of Clover’s passing. One of the hardest things to do is to lose a beloved pet.

  84. PinkyMac says:

    Oh Suzanne, Through my tears I want to say I am so sad for you. We all agree that Clover was very special. I bet she lived as long as she did with her physical problems because she was so loved. Take some comfort in that and when the pain is not so raw, treasure the memories.

  85. Gingermouse says:

    Words cannot describe the devastation I feel for you. Clover WAS the QUEEN of the farm (either old or now)….My heart breaks and I have shed many tears for you….she was a special animal.
    Her love of cookies (and anything else you would give her), made her the leader of the pack. May you find peace in knowing she is with our Father in heaven. She will truly be missed by all!

  86. Julia says:

    I’m so very sorry. We will all miss her. RIP Clover.

  87. Country Blossom says:

    I’m so very sorry. It is a tragedy. Clover had a lovely life with you. She will wait at the Rainbow bridge. :hug:

  88. Teresa Baker says:

    I’m so sorry. I feel like I’ve lost my own pet. πŸ™
    Teresa (from Lancaster, PA)

  89. Amerayl says:

    I am so sad to hear about Clover. She was a miracle goat for sure, very special. At least you got a photo of her before she had the heart attack. I wish I had gotten one of my little Jewel before she died. I can’t believe Clover isn’t around anymore.


  90. Pete says:

    RIP Clover. You brought a lot of joy to a lot of people, and were indeed a very special goat. You will be missed.

    Yeah, Suzanne, it’s gonna bit tough for a while… :heart:

  91. Mandys says:

    Oh no :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:( Not Cover :(:(:(:( I got such a pit in my stomach when I read the first line.

    No ;-; Clover’s my favourite animal on your farm. I’m going to miss her a lot πŸ™ Not as much as you though I imagine πŸ™ I’m so sorry πŸ™ I really am. I can’t believe it πŸ™

    Sending you a ton of hugs.

  92. Cheryl LeMay says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. Such a shock. Like everyone else here she touched my heart too. I’m crying like a baby over this.

  93. UlrikeDG says:

    Your adventures in milking Clover were the stories that brought me to this blog. I read them all and told my friends about them. She was definitely Some Goat.

  94. EMarie says:

    Oh Suzanne! I am so sorry to learn of Clover’s passing. She truly was a special animal and entertained us so delightfully. It’s almost as if she were “our” goat. It has to be so hard; I pray that you find comfort in her memory.

  95. Jane L says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. I am crying here with you – a sad day. Clover will forever be associated with CITR and will not be forgotten.

  96. Sheryl says:

    I’m so sorry, Suzanne-that just knocked the wind out of my sails-just can’t believe this has happened. You loved her and she knew it. πŸ˜₯

  97. beforethedawn says:

    Oh Suzanne, I’m so sorry!! πŸ™ I can’t believe she’s just gone like that, it breaks my heart.

    Thanks to you, she won’t be forgotten, and boy was she loved!

  98. roosterrun says:

    Suzanne, I am sooo sorry for your loss. I lost my precious special goat last year. I know what you are feeling and how hard it is. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

  99. Dawn says:

    :snuggle: I’m sure enough tears have been shed today to start another creek on the farm – Clover will be so missed – she was such a favorite – so glad you were right there at the time so she wouldn’t be as scared – know that Clover will be waiting on the rainbow bridge and we are all sending you love and support.

  100. farmershae says:

    My husband just walked in and is wondering why I’m crying like a baby. Suzanne, I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m sending you hugs and prayers for good memories only :hug:

  101. scollard says:

    Oh, Suzanne, how sad. I’m so sorry for your loss. She loved you dearly — otherwise, she would have been gone long ago with the heart and lung problems she had. She’ll be watching over you until the day you cross the rainbow bridge together…

  102. MousE says:

    Oh no! How awful!

    I’m very sorry, she was a lovely animal. I am glad that you were there when it happened, but I am so sad that it happened. Oh Suzanne. What a year. My thoughts are with you.

  103. myaizar says:

    Suzanne I am so sorry to hear about Clover! I have always enjoyed your stories about her and all the others. We will all surely miss her!

  104. MousE says:

    Oh Suzanne. Hugs to you!

  105. dklenke says:

    Suzanne, I am so sorry for your loss. Clover was such a love. I always loved when you wrote about her. She will be missed by all of us.

  106. angiemay says:

    Oh Suzanne, I am so very sorry πŸ™ Crying over sweet Clover. You were there for her and did everything you could to try to save her. She had a great home with you. Hugs to you.

  107. Linda Goble says:

    Suzanne, I am so very sorry for the loss of Clover!!!!!!! She will be terribly missed. My heart goes out to you and I hope your heart will heal quickly She was one special goat!!!! Big Hugs to you!!!!

  108. Dennis says:

    Losing some one you love,be it man or beast is always hard.So sorry for your lost and yes it made me sad too.

  109. leneskate says:

    Again like all the others so sorry to hear. Clover was such a delight. We will all miss her so much. Hugs from WA Suzane

  110. maryellen51 says:

    I am so sorry, Suzanne,for your loss. I am crying as I write this over Clover and the loss of one of my little friends this weekend. Please accept my heatfelt condolences. Hugs to you. I always loved your Clover stories.

  111. Julieanna says:

    I’m crying and have only known Clover through you. I can only imagine your sorrow and heartache. I am so sorry for your loss. Many people will miss her, too. Hugs.

  112. Miss Judy says:

    So sorry you lost your beautiful Clover.I was hoping to give her a pat on Sunday. I am amazed she had all of those problems but yet lived such a long time. If not for your wonderful loving care she wouldn’t have had such a happy life. Hugs.

  113. Murphala says:

    :clover: poor clover, poor you. :hug: I’m glad I got to meet her, she was a queen among goats. She will be missed.

  114. Too Little Time says:

    So sorry to read about Clover. She was lucky to have you as her friend, to watch over her. At the time I read this you already had 113 comments. That means that you have more than 114 sets of eyes shedding tears for you and for her. She will be missed by us all.

  115. Janine E says:

    My heart is breaking for you, Suzanne. Thank you for sharing Clover with us.

  116. brenda s okie in colorado says:

    This is a sad day. I can’t stop crying. I was so in love with Clover. I know one thing though, Clover is in Cookie Heaven. Suzanne, I love all your precious animals and they give me many smiles, but I will miss her. I am so sorry for your loss.

  117. Old Geezer says:

    So very sad. Mrs. Geezer and I send our love your way.

    But I think that Clover had a life so much better because of your care and devotion. Remember the good times.

  118. mamajoseph says:

    Such a sad day as Sassafras far. Sorry for your loss and she will be missed by so many of us.

  119. Erin F says:

    Suzanne, I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved Clover. Thinking of you today.

  120. Picklepie103 says:

    I’m so sorry Suzanne. Animals have a special way of worming their way deep inside our hearts and becoming so much more than dogs and cats and goats. They become family, treasured and loved beyond measure. Clover was loved by so many and will be deeply missed.

  121. Teresa says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. :hug:

  122. Yankee in NC says:

    Oh. Suzanne. I am heartbroken for you. Clover was indeed, a very special creature on this earth. She fills a special place in your heart. Words are just not enough. I am so very sorry.
    I will miss her greatly.

  123. rurification says:

    Sending good thoughts your way. Clover was the life of the party. We’re so sorry she’s gone. We’ll miss her.

  124. kelly jo kirby says:

    I am so sorry for your loss. I am going to be crying all day at work but my coworkers are use to it because I get very upset when a pet passes away, even if it is not mine. Keep her memory close.

  125. cindyinohio says:

    We are heartbroken right along with you. Tried to write something last night but just couldn’t do it. You are in my prayers. Still can’t believe it. We will all miss Clover stories.

  126. marrypoppinz says:

    I loved her, too….you made her so special and really brought out her personality. So sorry for your loss.

  127. joeyfulnoise says:

    I am one of those thousands. I am so sorry.

  128. bbkrehmeyer says:

    dear sweet funny Clover. She did her best to make your life full of excitement and happiness. Unfortunately most always our animals pass before we do.
    Its just the circle of life on a farm or ranch. Still hurts tho. probably BP will be next.

  129. wildcat says:

    Suzanne, I’m so sorry for your loss! I am sitting here in tears. My co-workers would think I was nutz if they knew I was over here in my cubicle, sniffling over a stranger’s goat who I only knew through blog posts. But I’m one of those thousands you mentioned. I felt like I knew her. I’m going to miss Clover, and I know you will too. My deepest condolences. :hug:

  130. wildcat says:

    I don’t know what it would be, but there must be some way to honor Clover’s memory at Sassafras Farm. Something permanent to memorialize her. Something physical, or an annual event of some kind. It would have to be something fitting for the queen that she was. :yes:

  131. twiggityNDgoats says:

    Suzanne, I am so very very sorry. Clover was truly a special little goat and brought many smiles to my face over the years. Count me among the thousands that will miss her terribly.

  132. MrsB says:

    Oh, I am just so sorry. Losing something you love is horrible. What a good momma you were to Clover. Her antics have been wonderful reading. We will ALL miss Clover.

  133. SweetPug says:

    I’m so sorry Suzanne. Clover was special to everyone who reads your blog. If she only knew how many fans she had mourning for her today.
    I couldn’t stop the tears myself as I read your post. My deepest sympathy. I too will miss Clover. ((((Hugs))))

  134. Darlene says:

    She was special, everyone could see it. You are the reason she stayed as long as she did. I am still in disbelief, so very, very sorry.

  135. falnfenix says:

    oh no. πŸ˜₯

  136. KelJo says:

    This is so heartbreaking!I burst in to tears while reading. Please know that I extend my deepest sympathy and will be mourning right along with you. I loved to hear about her and seeing pictures (especially in her tiara!)

  137. cpip says:

    I am so sorry to read about Clover. I have enjoyed reading your posts and looking at your pictures of her in all of her hats, I could tell she was special to you. I am sad for her loss and your grief, sorry.

  138. piemaker7461 says:

    Suzanne, I am crying with you. Thank you for your tender heart. I am praying for you.

  139. ladybird_1959 says:

    Oh Suzanne, I’m so sorry. We need to set up some type of little memorial at the party on the farm for her. Your goat yard will always have a bare spot in it now that she is gone. My heart and prayers go out to you.

  140. JoelySue says:

    So many of us have never met you or your animals in person, but it’s a testament to your wonderful blog that we’re devastated by Clover’s passing. Yes, I’m crying for a goat I never even had the pleasure of feeding a cookie. I’ve thought of very little else since I saw your post last night. Hugs to you and everyone at Sassafras Farm who are grieving.

  141. pdelainey says:

    I’m sorry to hear about Clover. She will be greatly missed.

  142. mahuntley says:

    Suzanne, so sorry but blessed at the same time – you were blessed with that special goat.
    I have to admit, I am crying at my desk right now. This internet is so weird – we feel so much for the bloggers and the bloggers families. You take it easy – we understand what you are going through and it had to be so hard driving to the Vet with Clover in the back.. you are a tough cookie – hand in there.

  143. cherylinwv says:

    Oh how I hate to come to the site for my daily dose, only to find there has been a entry made into the “barnyard obits”! They make me cry! I know that’s all a part of being a farmer and also a part of life, but that just doesn’t make it any easier. RIP Clover and :hug: Suzanne.

  144. FreedomValleyFarm says:

    I am so, so ,so sorry Suzanne. I am in shock, what a strange thing to happen. Life is so fragile. Clover was a special goat who brigtened my day many times with her crazy antics and sweet goatie charm. Rest in peace beloved Clover.

  145. Flowerpower says:

    They may be furry and have 4 legs but they are still very much a part of your family. Poor Clover…I am so sorry to hear about this.

  146. mintamichelle says:

    So very sorry for your loss…..there are no words :hug:

  147. shirley T says:

    Rest in peace dear Clover.We all loved you from the start. You will be missed. Love and prayers . πŸ˜₯

  148. The High Altitude Tea Duchess says:

    Oh, I am so, so sorry for your loss! Clover will be missed by us all. She was the Queen of Sassafras.

  149. knititblack says:

    Oh, how devastating! I’m so, so sorry to hear this. She was indeed a very special goat and I can’t imagine how much pain you must be in. Know that you’re not alone.

  150. pcar88 says:

    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I wish I were home so I could go and hug my goats. She was so special and is what originally brought me to your blog. I will sincerely miss her. No goat ever looked better in a tiara. Hugs to you.

  151. Urbanite says:

    I am so sorry to hear the awful news about Clover. I found CITR because I was comparing various cheese recipes, but I stayed for Clover. She was a goat with real personality and attitude. I looked forward to her Christmas outfit every year and enjoyed every posting about new ways she showed us she was queen of the farm. Every year I’ve bought a goat for Heifer International in Clover’s honor. I’m sitting here at work trying to discreetly mop up the tears, and I never cry. I didn’t even cry when my parents died. I suppose we can be grateful that Clover had such a wonderful life in spite of her concealed medical problems. But right now I can only think that the world is a worse place without her.

  152. Urbanite says:

    Suzanne, I just want to add that I’m glad you weren’t alone when this happened.

  153. wormlady says:

    My heart goes out to you! Every time an animal dies on me I swear I’ll never have another, because it is so painful. For what it may be worth, do remember that she had the best possible life as your goat. And let your memories of her be of comfort to you.

  154. autumnchannels says:

    So sorry to hear about your loss. Its so hard when a beloved pet dies. They bring such joy and comfort into our lives. We need them as much as they need us. I hope you feel better soon.

  155. Joell says:

    Suzanne, we are all so sorry to hear that Cover has left us. Thank you for sharing her with us all the time she was with you, she brought much happiness to so many of us.
    She will be missed by many.

  156. jodiezoeller says:

    I’m sitting here at work with tears in my eyes. Clover was one of a kind. I’m sorry for your loss. I know she will be missed. If there is a heaven for good goats, she’s there, says “where are my cookies woman!”

  157. steakandeggs says:

    Suzanne I am so sorry to hear Clover is gone. Those Dear animals we take into our hearts and homes can have sure a powerful affect on our lives. I know you must be brokehearted and She Will Be missed by a great many people.

  158. Njoylife says:

    I’m so very sad. Clover was a queen! I loved her too. All that you wrote about her reached right through the page to us! She will be missed. So sorry for your loss. So glad you could be with her. I just had a good cry. Rest now, Clover. I know you’ll be wearing your tiara always now. HUGS.

  159. Vicki in So. CA says:

    Oh, Suzanne. I am so, so sorry, and so, so sad for you. :hug:

  160. DebbieInMemphis says:

    I’m so sorry, Suzanne. Clover was so special and her personality shined in your photos and writing. She is greatly missed.

  161. lavenderblue says:

    Suzanne, words fail. Clover was such a sweet little imp. We will all miss the stories about her. Take time for yourself during the Party. I’m sure everyone will understand. Love and prayers from


  162. JerseyJenny says:

    It seems you had a lot of “extra”, miraculous time with Clover … though no time is truly ever enough with our special ones.

    My thoughts are with you as you move through the loss of Clover. :hug:

  163. SanAntonioSue says:

    I’m soooo sorry, Suzanne!! Clover’s sassiness and your stories about her will be greatly missed!! However, I swear I can hear her saying: “Woman, I know you love me and I love you too but don’t be too sad at my leaving. I am in a place now where my tiara never falls off since I am, of course, THE QUEEN and I have cookies ALL DAY LONG if I want (sticking her tongue out)…SO THERE!!”…… Peace and Comfort to you, Suzanne ((hugs))

  164. Louise says:

    Suzanne, I am at work crying like a baby. I can’t imagine how hurt you are over the loss of Clover. I am so very sorry. She will be missed by all of us. Louise

  165. daria says:

    So sorry for your loss. She was more than a pet – we all loved her.

  166. Estella says:

    So very sorry for your/our loss.

  167. Ms.Becky says:

    oh dear oh dear oh dear. Suzanne, I hope you have no more heartache/break for a very very long time. You’ve had more than your share. Clover is in critter heaven, with the others. It was time for her to rest. May peace be with you. :hug:

  168. Esor says:

    I am so sorry Suzanne. I’m shocked, it is so sudden. My heart goes out to you.


  169. jessigooch says:

    Words can not express how sorry I am Reading about Clover was always fun. Its like loosing a child she was more than just a farm animal like stupid people say Much love and hugs to you :wave: :hug:

  170. jan n tn says:

    SOB! SOB! SOB! We will all truly miss you Sweet Girl.

  171. jan n tn says:

    I haven’t stopped crying since reading this early this morning. It feels as if we all have lost ‘one of our own’

  172. tea4too0 says:

    Suzanne, I can hardly see the screen thru the tears. Clover was so “The Diva”. You brought her personality to us in such a delightful way. Thank you for that, and much love to you.

  173. moorege says:

    My deepest sympathies……… hearbreaking. She must have been extraordinarily happy to have lived so long through such adverse physical conditions….

  174. LoriP says:

    Oh I am soooo sorry. My heart dropped when I saw the title that just said Clover and then broke for you when I read the post. Big hug.

  175. missjane says:

    Suzanne, I too am crying about Clover. I know you are sad but you did the best for her. You are a wonderful mama to both furry friends and your own kids. I hope your heart will heal in a few days but remember, Clover’s memories will always be part of you. I’m sending you lots of hugs!

  176. tmavraides says:

    I am so terribly sorry. I am tears as I write this to you. I know how much that goat meant to you. My reaction to reading your horror even made my husband cry. I am crushed on your behalf. I am truly so very sorry.

  177. SuzieQ says:

    Through tears for you and Clover, I’m so sorry. We all loved her and looked forward to ANY post/photos about her. She HAS to be the first character of the book we all want. Lots of photos and stories about her…My great granddaughter, who’s three, loves books and especially ones about animals. You could end it with a photo of her with her angel wings added. We’ll miss her. πŸ˜₯ πŸ˜₯

  178. utroukx says:

    i am so very, very sorry for your loss. πŸ™

  179. Darlene in North GA says:

    I’m so sorry for your (and our) loss. Clover was a funny little girl. I’m glad she had such a wonderful life with you and your family. And I’m glad she lived to experience the joy of your having Sassafras Farm and the wide-open places she had to move around in.
    I know we’ll all miss her, but none so much as you will. Hugs :hug:

  180. gaea303 says:

    I’m so sorry Suzanne. I never met her but I loved her too…I suspect many here felt that way. She was such a unique lady. :hug:

  181. MissyinWV says:

    πŸ˜₯ I am so sorry for the loss of such a special part of your family…..I did get to meet Clover once at a party on the farm at Stringtown Rising. My daughter leaned down to feed her a cookie and said “Mom its Clover! She is famous.” That statement speaks volumes about how special she is to your heart. You are a wonderful writer….Clover was an amazing part of your story. You made her famous indeed. I will sure miss hearing about Clover. :hug:

  182. whaledancer says:

    Sharing your heartbreak, as you shared Clover with us all these years. Clover was a one-of-a-kind original. They’ll never be another quite like her. I feel privileged to have known her through your posts and pictures.

  183. lauren says:

    Im so sorry :(…..

  184. woolylamb says:

    I am sorry, so very sorry. Clover was special, and loved by many. Especially you. She is at peace now, not in pain, and I hope you can find peace too. Loss of a loved animal is so hard, and not understood by all. But we do, Suzanne, we do.

  185. City Kid says:

    Oh, no! I’m so sorry Suzanne. Clover was such a character. :hug:

  186. Ramona Slocum says:

    I am so sorry. Clover will be missed by all of us. We love all your family of animals. We have a special connection to them too.
    My prayers are with you.
    MN Mona

  187. Kathi says:

    I am sorry, too, Suzanne. I’ll cry with you. Thank you for sharing Clover with all of us.

  188. Butterbean says:

    Just saw this. I am so very, very sorry!!!! I just went through something similar and I couldn’t help but cry when I read your post. My heart goes out to you.

  189. Banjobetsy says:

    Suzanne: So sorry to hear about Clover! Glad that Heather was there to help…Hope you have some great times during the Retreat, hate I am missing it – Love to all of you!

  190. Leah says:

    Awe,this is so sad. I’ll always remember Clover and keep the calendar with her picture in it. Hang in there , I know how much you loved her.

  191. Pat says:

    Oh, Suzanne. I’m so sorry. She was an incredible girl. I’m heartbroken for you. RIP, Sweet Clover.
    Pat in Eastern NC

  192. pamplemousse says:

    I read this post teary-eyed. She was a special animal.

  193. AmyI says:

    Hugs, hugs, and more hugs! So sorry!

  194. contentedcat says:

    Oh, Clover was such the character wasn’t she? And she gave you and all of us readers so much happiness. She will be missed by all of us. (I’m just happy she was so photogenic and you have so many great photos of her to remember her by!)

  195. Cubzwin1908 says:

    Few goats have touched as many hearts as Clover…I’m sharing your tears today for her. I’m SO sorry….but what a happy life you gave her.

  196. AspenFlower says:

    She was a special goat. Please feel comforted that you gave her lots of love and care. I’m sure she was very happy living with you and your family & all the other farm animals on the farm. She couldn’t have been at a more special place. My condolences, truly.

  197. holstein woman says:

    I am so sorry for your loss, Clover will always be with you though because you have her photos and love to live on in you.
    I know how you feel, I am devastated every time I lose a precious pet.

  198. Naturegirl46 says:

    Dear Suzanne: My heart is with you in losing your funny, lovely Clover. She is a wonderful spirit and will always be with you in your mind and in your heart. It was a mercy that she was not ill. She was loved and beloved by many. What a great life she had! I sit here crying as if she were my own. You have my sincerest sympathy in this great loss.

  199. Chickenlady62 says:

    Like everyone else I am SO sorry about your little Clover! Your stories and photos have made me laugh many a time when I needed a serious pick me up. I just loved seeing that little goat face ! Nothing any of us say is going to ease that pain, you unfortunately are going to have to work that one out . But we are all here to listen if you should need a virtual shoulder to lean on.

  200. grannysu says:

    Suzanne, your heartbreak comes though so painfully. I’ve been there too, when I lost my beloved goat Snowflake. It hurts. She had a good life with you and that’s what you will remember later on. Right now, it’s just hurt.

  201. Stick Horse Cowgirls says:

    Breaks my heart! She was beautiful! So sorry!

  202. Debbie in PA says:

    Oh, I am so, so sorry. I haven’t been reading for a bit, so I am just catching up now.

    What a goat she was. When I think back on all your stories about her, and think about the unknown health issues she had, I can only say what an amazing being she was. And thanks to your stories and pictures, she will always live on, Suzanne.

  203. Pat says:

    Suzanne, it’s hard to imagine your site without Clover. Is there anyway you can make a special Clover place on your site with her picture or something? I know you have lots to do and it probably couldn’t happen right now. It just seems that she should always be a part of your site. I know I will ALWAYS think of her when I think of CITR.
    Pat in Eastern NC
    p.s. My heart is with you.

  204. Elizabeth chicken lover says:

    Your stories of clover and all the fun you had with her were amazing. Clover won’t be forgotten

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